Scientific Research & Self-Development Activism
Here is a short description of who I was not very long ago:
I was a shy guy who would sit alone in class if I had the choice to do so. I never spoke to my friends unless they asked me something and I would hide my thoughts and feelings because it was the easy way (not) to deal with them.
Now I can say that I'm different. I make friends. I can look at people's faces when I talk to them and I can do a bunch of other normal stuff.
The truth is that even when I was the shy guy, I still made friends and they always told me I needed to change and they tried to help me do so. The problem here is that when I changed, I had just left high school. This meant that I couldn't tell them "thank you" and lately I started to think about it and decided to find them and say just that.
Here is the funny part (or sad), today I called one of my "friends" to tell her I was sorry for not showing how much she and everyone else meant to me. It was easy to say this, but I was truly shocked when the answer was "Why are you telling me this? We never talked much."
Now THAT I was not expecting. Now I really want to start talking to everyone again and show them that I changed.
I don't know if there is any lesson to take from this but if there was it would be something along the lines of: Tell your friends how much you love them.
have already done, they didn`t even call me gay:)
It's stories like these that contribute to my misanthropy and extreme introvert life style.