Who can possibly sum themselves in a paragraph? My existence in this world seems to constantly be changing, or perhaps it is only my perception. I’m a survivor, but does that make me always optimistic? No… I tend to over analyze situations, worry about the unnecessary and find myself trying to save the world instead of saving myself. On the flip side, I have keen awareness of my downfalls, and often recognize them – acknowledge them, and try to change. I am independent, but love companionship, I have a Dominate personality when it’s convenient, yet submissive at heart. When I give myself to someone, I give it with everything I have – a life lesson learned when once upon a time, I was not this way. I am a simple girl, yet complex to understand – determined to make a difference – the one thing I am not, is judgmental, the one thing that I am, is a mother, of four beautiful little girls, they are my blood, my life - I would do anything in this world to protect them from all the lessons I learned the hard way. But that is part of growing up, and finding yourself – all I can do is catch them when they fall and be there for them with unconditional love.
Pink Floyd, Nine Inch Nails, Seether, Atreyu,The black crowes, Dave Matthews Band, Led Zeppelin, John Mayer, Johnny Cash, Metallica (yes angela, I love them too!), stone temple pilots, U2, sound garden, jimi Hendrix, nirvana, maroon 5, outkast, red hot chili peppers, eminem, beatles, sublime, norah jones, tracey chapman, sarah mclachlin Natalie merchant, Ozzie, UB40, recoil, Sheryl Crow, AC/DC, Kid Rock, bon jovi, The Police, Sting, Pink, Gwen Stefani, … and so many more I can’t even recall at the moment – I suck at trying to remember band names
Too many to list.. ok, I just can't recall the names.. but I'm a sucker for old westerns, not into star wars or star trek at all - love Bridges of Madison County, Phantom of the Opera but prefer the actual musical rather than the movie -Moulin Rouge rocks :)
I'm fond of and fascinated by the 1940's-50's-60's era of the beat poets, the 'beats' if you will, a literary movement of writers including Kerouac & Burroughs, later spawned into a generation of struggling writers, musicians, poets... that were often seen as non-conformist - they preached anti-materialism and soul searching. I never made the connection with why I loved Pink Floyd so much until I started searching for the meaning behind their songs.. they had depth - I could lose myself in the music. During this time, I discovered that the beat generation was also a huge influence on the Beatles - explaining their explosive success, in my opinion. "Free Love". Not to be mistaken as the 'hippie movement' - though this was probably another branch of the beats, but I do believe in many of the spiritual writings and beliefs of this generation. Vague, perhaps, I'm not an expert, but this is what I know.... let me, be me.
Started my PhD in december, ended in January - decided it wasn't worth another 50K :) I can be a scholar without a degree. My goals stem around my daughter, becoming more independent and not letting others decide they know me better than I do.
I'm very much into teaching information literacy. The success of our youth depends on their ability to locate, understand, retain, and utilize information that is before their very eyes - so often they have no clue where to look - let us be their guides, give them the tools to become learners ..and.. teachers.
The greatest achievement is selflessness. The greatest worth is self-mastery. The greatest quality is seeking to serve others. The greatest precept is continual awareness. The greatest medicine is the emptiness of everything. The greatest action is not conforming with the worlds ways. The greatest magic is transmuting the passions. The greatest generosity is non-attachment. The greatest goodness is a peaceful mind. The greatest patience is humility. The greatest effort is not concerned with results. The greatest meditation is a mind that lets go. The greatest wisdom is seeing through appearances. Atisha
When you live in the shadow of insanity, the appearance of another mind that thinks and talks as yours does is something close to a blessed event. - Robert M. Pirsig
Do not pursue the past. Do not lose yourself in the future. The past no longer is. The future has not yet come. Looking deeply at life as it is. In the very here and now, the practitioner dwells in stability and freedom. We must be diligent today. To wait until tomorrow is too late. Death comes unexpectedly. How can we bargain with it? The sage calls a person who knows how to dwell in mindfulness night and day, 'one who knows the better way to live alone.' Bhaddekaratta Sutta
And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom. ~ Anais Nin
Flip Flops and Parking Lots
Thoughts on the Death of my Doctor
With the recent death of my doctor, thoughts have been on the ‘words of wisdom’ he has passed along over the preceding 4 years. I would say “he saved my life” he would say I saved myself, he acted as the catalyst to which I would eventually learn to understand my feelings and overcome my fears. The search for a doctor you trust, who instills hope, and provokes thought is hard to find and he will be missed deeply. Though… Continue
Taken from a journal I keep elsewhere - In case you are wondering, the quote at the top comes from 'Breath Control' by Recoil.
Why is it so many of us in this community are misunderstood? Why is it, a life I've led for so long, as a submissive, suddenly feels completely wrong for me? Maybe it is the need to take control of my life, maybe it is the need to take back the control I let so many take from me? I try to put it all into perspective - My Dominate nature seemed to appear as I… Continue
wow you came back more like ^^ remembering you were from back in the day P.B was still here... and that... you wrote a book or something?? :P
never spoke to you before, but wb anyway. fyi may want to catch up on Athene's Theory of Everything + the 'SDA' vlogs (if you haven't already) before you go off leaving again ^^ other than that, business as usual for this place i guess...
"If your serious about this joey you need to rebuild the web site, yeah its fine but its not exsactly working at full efficency; the chat is down and dosent really work well at all when it loads.
Bringing back the old dogs to fill out the ranks is…"
Hello Everyone!Now you guys can join the IPower 3.0 experience using your Google Account! Get back in touch with your old friends! Call them! Let them come!And if you're new here, there's no better place to start!Soon it will grow, member by…See More
Dear I Power Community,I've posted here before, but I've been mostly inactive on the forums due to a massive workload. in any case, I’m a computer scientist and mathematician. Over the last few years I’ve been applying these developing skills to…See More
"learn as much knowledges as i can in order to help myself and people around me.that is my goal so far.maybe i will change my idea in some day,but for now,it is what i am considering about.although it is so hard to approach,life is tough,just like a…"
"That's a really good take on reading books. I got back to reading books when I was doing community service and had to take public transort to get to my workplace. It took me 1 hour to get there, so I thought what better way to use that time…"
"Anyone can be a King.
If you request to be added on the Google group, you will be accepted within a few days. Henrico is the one who accepts applicants. He's usually busy with some real-life stuff, but expect to be accepted within 2-3 days."