Scientific Research & Self-Development Activism
Ever since I busied myself with work, I've had little time for other things that I would like to do such as volunteering, projects, blog post, vlogs, and some hobbies of mine. Working sucks. I used to tell people that we have everything so there is no reason to be unhappy. Truth is, we do have everything, but we have no time to enjoy what we have because we are working all the time to pay bills, to stay afloat financially, and loads of other reasons. Working hours and hours in a cubicle. No expression, no fulfillment, resentment and shit like that. No fucking wonder people are depressed. If I don't find time to draw something or have some sort of creative outlet, I'd go crazy. This whole depression thing...I get it...I totally get it now. It reminds me of what a fellow Ipower member said to me back then: "Everyone regrets not doing the things they want to do when they die, but no one on their death-bed regrets doing extra chores or working more hours."
I've been hired at this job that I signed up for part time, but now I'm suddenly working full-time. I think I've been bought for cheap working nine hour shifts 6 days a week at a somewhat prestigious position being paid a little too close to minimum wage. I want to quit because it's just too much work for being paid so little. In addition to discovering that I'm not guaranteed a raise after six months of working like this and all the nasty little secrets that I learned, my boss is not going to pay me overtime. It's not worth the effort. Not only that, there is just bad management and work schedules are all over the place. I don't mind 8 dollars an hour if I didn't have to use my brain in a place where they won't be dragging me here and there and if I had stable hours. If I wanted 8 dollars an hour, I'd be working at a grocery store. Second week of work, I nearly got burnt out. People kept telling me that I shouldn't push myself hard like that. At the end of the week, I had several beers got drunk at a friends house, passed out, and stayed the night. In fact, while writing this blog, i'm slightly buzzed. Maybe I should threaten to quit or find some documents on the internet that states that it is illegal to deny your workers overtime pay. It says on the fucking poster in the lounge area about complying with the law and paying workers overtime.
So lately, I've been applying to other jobs while keeping this one for now. The only reason why I've been putting up with my current job is because I need the money, although I'm not that desperate. Originally I was going to wait until I get another job, but I think it's better to just quit now. I don't like to be taken advantage of. Seems like the less I know over there, the better it is for me and my mental health. Summer classes start soon. I don't know how that will go given my current situation. Hopefully, it won't be so bad. Might learn some interesting stuff.
I decided to let out my creativity on a new project I'm doing. I found a pretty good niche for myself when it comes to art: graphic novels and comics. So I have decided to do some sort of artbook with a bunch of my comics with different stories in it that has to do with personal empowerment. My main goal is to inspire people, I suppose. I've also undertaken a new project to design avatars for this ipad app my bro's friend wants is developing.
As far as relationships with other people go...I'd say it's fine for now. Parents aren't always on my ass about things these days, which is a good thing. Been out of the house most of the time hanging out with an old friend who came back from Scotland during the times I'm free. We'll get drunk hardcore later on this week and perhaps plan a drunken art party at her place. There is also a quick question for you guys. WHY THE HELL ARE MALES SO WEIRD?!!?! I don't get men. I just don't. I'm a pretty easy, no-nonsense type person. But some dudes like to play games like women. I used to play games like that in elementary school, but those games are for noobs. Sorry.