I just wanted to add another blog because I'm in the middle of writing another philosophy and I'm having trouble getting inspired with it. For the philosophy class I have my midterm exam in two weeks so I'm looking forward to seeing what that is all about. I turned in three papers last class period and I will get them at tomorrow night's class. I am hoping that I don't get docked points for them.

In the bass department I am having my bass looked at right now by my teacher. I will probably get it back tomorrow. I'll need to get a practice amp to continue. They cost around $50. The song I want to work on is "Holy Mountains" by System of a Down. I've been practicing The White Stripes' "Seven Nation Army" for now but getting bored with how easy it is.

As far as other things in my life, I've been on an emotional roller coaster ride. I do have some days where I feel good, positive, happy, and all that lovey duvy hippie crap. Other days days I find myself to be depressed, angry, and bitter. I think aside from my condition, my depression is caused by loneliness. As I've stated I'm an extreme introvert and meeting new people/making friends doesn't come easy for me. I'm also a very radical person and it's hard for me to find like-minded people where I live. Matthew Martin mentioned in his vlog about creating a positive environment in your immediate community. I am a total mama's boy and I rely heavily on my mom for a lot of problems I face. She has been my emotional leader my whole life. She and I both agreed that I needed to branch out a while ago. That has been painful for me as I built up a lot of trust with my yoga instructor over the past three years but for a while now I think she has been lying to me to keep me at bay so I've been avoiding her recently. I do have a lot of trust issues ever since an incident where one of my cousins betrayed my trust. I think my problem is that I trust too much, too fast, too easily.