I think I'll try to squeeze in a quick blog before I go into work today, though I think Shiznit might be the only one who reads these XD. That's fine because I need to vent every so often. As I've mentioned I've been diagnosed with Schizo-affect disorder. That was in January of 2009. I was extremely resentful at the time and had all but given up on everything. I do think that gradually I have made a lot of steps in the right direction. Forgiving my cousin last year was the biggest step for me I think.

Although I do think I have made a lot of progress, I also think I have a very long way to go. I have been dealing with a lot of anxiety and depression. I think its because I care too much. I see all these horrible things happening in the world and I want to do something about it. Of course I can't fix everything. I've tried talking with people in my community about my concerns but it seems like no one cares. It also seems like they dismiss my concerns because of my diagnosis. Anyways I'll probably add more to this later but for now I need to head off to work.

ADDITION: Back from work. It was pretty long for 7 hours. I had regular coffee this morning so I don't think that helped with my anxiety. Any who I've been trying to adopt a more positive attitude but this is very challenging as I am naturally inclined towards negativity. I do think that starting to play the bass guitar will help with this. I'm an atheist but music is the closest thing I have to a religion. My best life experiences have been going to concerts. I could almost call them "spiritual". In any case I have tomorrow off from work so I might make a Vlog then. Till next time.