Scientific Research & Self-Development Activism
So I am sitting here in front of my computer. I notice I have wasted so much time today. I start something, but never go to the end of completing it, so I want to at least go to the end and complete this blog for myself. This will probably be the one useful thing I do today. I don't know if the ginkgo supplement is helping my brain or is making me more dumb. I feel very clear headed. It is suppose to make you smarter, but maybe with the combination of my meds the effects are negative. I don't know.
Anyways today was my day off. I go to work tomorrow at 7am, so I will probably need to go to sleep at 10 to get my 8 hours of sleep. I notice the days I have work I am a lot more productive with my time, because my time is limited. I value it more. Like if you have a whole day of not doing anything you won't value your time. You will put things off for the last minute. Then the day goes by and you realize you didn't do anything.
Yet when you have work for 9 hours the time after work is precious, so you put it into productive use. You do self development things. That is the benefit of going to work even though your job is not that great.
Currently I am focusing on improving my website development skills, and accounting skills. I want to run my own online business. I got an idea of what it is going to be, but I am not going to share it here. Learning html and accounting is very boring stuff, but I got to do it to escape the 9-5 shift. I like being my own boss. I don't like other people telling me what to do, and that is why I am teaching myself. School was good because it handed you a curriculum and everyone ate from the same plate. There is no instruction manual for life. It is entirely a free for all. When you are free you are really free, and this is problem with society. You don't know what to do with your freedom.
I do not watch television, nor do I watch any movies. I only listen to music when I am at the gym. Most of the day today I was here chatting on ipower chat. Trying to articulate what to say. Yet I couldn't come up with the right words. I like making my points short and concise, because I know how much people hate reading, but I think I am going to screw that rule and go into detail here.
All my life I have been told what to do, how to act, and what is normal. I never really questioned anything I was taught. I always just listened and followed other peoples instructions in life. The truth is that there are no set form of normal. What may be normal in one society, is really abnormal in another society. For to long I have been concerned about how other people judge me.
It is time to let loose, and be myself. Starting tomorrow I am going to be funny around people. I am going to be self amused, and I am not going to care what other people think. I am going to say stupid shit, and troll in real life. I am going to live freely, and if pain comes I am going to deal with it head on.
My life is like a wave. Sometimes I am on top of the world, and other times I am on the low end of the world. Life sucks. I am unmotivated. Not doing so well in workout, in school. When that happens its important to write a blog and realize what the issue is. Define it. Make it clear and ride the wave back up. It is not about how hard you hit. Its about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward. That is why I take a stand, and I get up.
I am having writers block. I do not know what to say. I want to say some awesome shit, but my mind is not making enough connections. I think when I am in the low all I can do is read, and try to absorb shit. When I am on high I will make more connections and share with you all.
Main point life has its ups and downs.